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Sunday, September 30, 2007
benign reminiscence.
the results are in: biopsies are normal. good news. now there's just the rest of my life to figure out.

I don't know what suddenly made me think of this one thing in particular this morning, but I looked back and remembered how many times in my life I have been lied to - by boyfriends, in particular. what angered me more, was that I let them get away with it. not just the lies, but the abuse, the cheating and the self-righteousness. some even contact me without a thought as to what they had done to me in the past. there were always two thing about me that bothered them; my outspokenness and sense of self. these things (aside from infidelity, naturally) drove their insecurity to excuses such as "I'm just not good for anybody" or "I think I need to be by myself" or my personal favorite, "you're just too good for me". however the one man who adored me, I let go. a terrible mistake, but he is happy now, I couldn't be happier for him (with a touch of regret).

I would love to out several of these men, but there is no need. they will out themselves soon enough, and my previous release had quieted today's reflection.
posted by cameron75 @ 7:03 PM  
2 Comments:
  • At 3:36 AM, Anonymous Anonymous said…

    I'm so glad you're well jg!

    : )

     
  • At 5:28 PM, Blogger cameron75 said…

    thank you. i am definitely relieved.

     
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