| Sunday, September 30, 2007 |
| benign reminiscence. |
the results are in: biopsies are normal. good news. now there's just the rest of my life to figure out.
I don't know what suddenly made me think of this one thing in particular this morning, but I looked back and remembered how many times in my life I have been lied to - by boyfriends, in particular. what angered me more, was that I let them get away with it. not just the lies, but the abuse, the cheating and the self-righteousness. some even contact me without a thought as to what they had done to me in the past. there were always two thing about me that bothered them; my outspokenness and sense of self. these things (aside from infidelity, naturally) drove their insecurity to excuses such as "I'm just not good for anybody" or "I think I need to be by myself" or my personal favorite, "you're just too good for me". however the one man who adored me, I let go. a terrible mistake, but he is happy now, I couldn't be happier for him (with a touch of regret).
I would love to out several of these men, but there is no need. they will out themselves soon enough, and my previous release had quieted today's reflection. |
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| Monday, September 24, 2007 |
| plans. |
I have been anxiously planning my trip to san francisco and seattle for next year. i'm so excited, that i'm not even anticipating the long flight. I think we may end up staying in hostels if the cost gets too high. thats perfectly fine with me - who wants to stay inside on vaca? every saved penny I have will be going to this trip, and I don't want to waste it on an expensive hotel. i'd like to stay in nob hill, soma or north beach (if anyone has any suggestions on places to stay, feel free). although I definitely plan on visiting the haight, I don't want to stay there. I have only been to the west coast once, and that was in another country. its about time.
I can't even begin to describe my anticipation of next year........ |
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